Friday, May 20, 2005
I wish so much for you to know how much I love this daughter of yours.
How much I would like to shelter her with my arms and protect her from whatever that may come.
How much I would like to adore her, to pamper her, to love her like there's no tomorrow.
How much I wish that I can be the one who brings her smiles and happiness.
You might not approve of this kinda of relationship even if she comes back to me (which is a total miracle).
But she made me believe in miracles, that I can even achieve one.
I love her, yes, that's how I feel.
It might not be as much as yours for her.
But I promise you, I really do.
kayyy @ 6:00 PM
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
I've always wanted to be someone that you would be proud of. So I did things that would make me stand out of the crowd so that you could see me. I donated blood, I donated bone marrow and I tried my best in competitions because what you said has always been on my mind - "do me proud baby." Although that last word might not be true anymore, in that deepest region of my heart, it is still yearning to hear that from you again. Maybe this seems childish, it's like I'm wishing for some impossible. But during that phase of my life when you were always by my side, you taught me that, with you, anything, and everything is possible and is beautiful.
kayyy @ 6:33 AM
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Monday, April 25, 2005
Silly me for not being able to remember your password, and that explains why I couldn't blog. Heh. My previous attempts were proven to be futile because I could only remember 87 as being the first two numbers of your password and that was it. I'm so sorry.
But upon deciding to pick up the phone to call you, I was indeed truly shocked on how I could remember your handphone number so easily and how it was right at my fingertips. I mean, it's not like I have been dialling your number that often lately. Heh. Selective memory I guess.
And yes, for your blood donation tomorrow, pleaseeee remember to tell the nurse to label the bag of blood with my name on it. I remember how I used to tell you not to donate your blood because I didn't want you to go through the pain of the needles and the whole process, but nonetheless, you always went about doing so.
Now, I guess I've started to realise something. I ain't angry. I'm just really proud of you for doing so!
((:
kayyy @ 11:09 PM
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005
been waiting for your entry since 5245485043985976 days ago.
guess it will never come?
well, what more can i expect.
kayyy @ 9:27 PM
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Friday, April 15, 2005
It's kinda crazy baby
How i remember things
(Like where you came from and how you had nothin)
I went and made you fly
Put extras on ya ride
(Didn't miss a birthday now u cant even remember mine)
You made it clear to me
(You wasn't down for me)
(I may be blind baby)
But now I see
(You had things up your sleeve, don't even lie to me)
I even heard it from your family...
How could you let somebody lay where I layed?
How could you give him everything that we made?
How could you call him all the names that u used to call me?
How could you how could you just forget about me?
How could you teach him all the things I taught You?
How could you put him up to the Ghetto Karmasutra?
How could you put me in the back and give him the front seat?
How could you how could you just forget bout me?
You must be out your mind
You got alot of nerve
(To think that i'm gone chill after at tha shit I heard)
I damn near carried you
I could've married you
Good thing I found out before I bought that seven carat for ya
(I know your sick about)
The way I found you out
(Go head and pack it out)
I hope he got room at his house
You should have thought of me before you hopped in the sheets
Damn I cant believe that u did this to me...
How could you let somebody lay where I layed?
How could you give him everything that we made?
How could you call him all the names that u used to call me?
How could you how could you just forget bout me?
How could you teach him all the things I taught You?
How could you put him up to the Ghetto Karmasutra?
How could you put me in the back and give him the front seat?
How could you how could you just forget bout me?
(Girl i tried to...) Give u everything
Can't believe the ways u repaid me
(Girl u...) Had it all
But i guess my all wasn't good enough for you
(Baby I've...) Accepted it
And I aint gone trip
Girl im movin on
(Sometimes I give...) Up and think that another mans gonna get the one I made
for me...(Ohh, baby)
kayyy @ 8:04 PM
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Thursday, April 14, 2005
cos i thought taking and giving would be balanced.
lil did i know i would end up with nothing at all.
cos i thought as long as i breathe, i'd still stand a chance.
lil did i know i was longer a choice.
cos when our hands met, they blended perfectly into each other.
lil did i expect that i can never hold yours in mine again.
cos memories are never sufficient for me.
but you said you were glad that you once had me.
cos i promised you forever.
but you said as long as it will last.
cos i can never, never forget you like how you've forgotten me.
you're no longer here.
kayyy @ 10:24 PM
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i swear i tried all that i could to make things easier to bear.
but i just cant...
i want to die.
KILL, ME.
kayyy @ 9:58 PM
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Tuesday, April 12, 2005
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
BYEBYE
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
LOL
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
DUN BYE ME LAH
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
I WANT MY LPS
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
wqads that
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
LAO PA SAT
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
oh shit
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
lols
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
AND I WANT MY SSSL
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
do u have the song
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
HAVE YOU EVER
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
BY S CLUB
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
DONT HAVE
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
I WANT MY SSSL
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
i wan Stace also
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
lol
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
WAH LAO
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
HOW COME YOU KNOW
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
I WAS WAITING TO TYPE IT OUT LAR
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
KAO
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
SPOILERRRRRR
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
stacey seet something right
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
LOLS.
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
sha lin
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
I NEED HER LEH
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
HEEHEEE
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
lol
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
WHY LE
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
LEH
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
SHE'S MINE IDIOT
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
wana ask her some stuff
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
LOLS
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
ASK WHAT
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
DUN KPO
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
TSK
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
she refuse to reply me after like 3 msgs
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
LOL
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
.
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
LOLS!?
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
SHUTUP
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
my crush is online
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
thinkin of her EX
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
I DONT CARE
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
TMD CB
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
I WANT MY SSSL
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
.
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
WHATEVER U
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
LOL
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
super shitty sha lin
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
LOL
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
lol
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
I WAN MY NCT
capricious. no, you don't know. says:
ARGH
kson. you're everything i can love about a woman. says:
SHUTUP.
conversation with your beloved tanhuiwen.
hahaha.
kayyy @ 3:09 PM
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
i'm surprised that friendster is now equipped with horoscopes.
heres what it says about us.
LeoThe Bottom LineYou're dangerously close to running out of steam. Time to take a break and recharge.
In DetailThe lights are low, the music is just right and the person you're with is the person you've been waiting for all your life. But if there's even one iota of doubt in your mind, don't make plans for that Elvis chapel in Vegas. Why risk making a mistake that serious when all you have to do is wait until Mercury isn't retrograde? Never mind what that means. Just wait until after the 12th. You'll be glad you did.
TaurusThe Bottom LineMake your own rules as you go along. Improvise. They'll admire you for it.
In Detail
That certain someone you've been exchanging long, lingering glances with at work? They're preparing to ask for a bit more of your time. Now, if this is a potential relationship, be sure that it won't interfere with your career before you take the first step. It's a lot easier to stop glancing than to explain why you won't be accepting the invitation to date number three.
erm, aint 12th the day you went with pin? ha, correct me if im wrong. but if im not, maybe yall will just have the most memorable monthsary or sth. best wishes for you.
kayyy @ 9:30 AM
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I felt as if I've let you down. Despite me claiming that I'll be there for you, when the time really comes, I was actually sleeping. It's like, fuck you kayson, why didn't you wake up earlier to pick up that call.
You must have been feeling so helpless to pick up that phone and dial my number. This has always been your last resort. Sorry, I let this happened again. I still cant forget the time when you rang me up twice in d night and I didn't pick up as well.
Please, be strong, for me, for her, even just for yourself. Remember I once said, I'll be your "guilding" light at the end of the tunnel? Yes lar, should be guiding instead. I hope you haven't deleted that text.
Anyway, I promise I'll put my phone under my pillow every single day from today onwards. No more ringing tones going dead ever for you okay? (:
I'm at the beginning waiting for you.
kayyy @ 7:25 AM
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